Bonberi’s Nicole Berrie on Body Harmony, Her Confessional New Cookbook

Nicole Berrie begins her new cookbook,by shattering the myth of the perfect wellness guru. Before the founder of food and well-being site and plant-based New York convenience store Bonberi Mart shares aspirational pages of colorful, vegan recipes—from her go-to green lemonade to tomato coconut-milk bisque and Chunky Monkey Froyo—Berrie reveals snapshots from a lifetime of disordered eating.

It began with the clandestine bags of Doritos she’d bring to bed at age seven, around “the same time my parents’ marriage began to unravel,” she writes, and she began to suffer chronic verbal, emotional, and at times physical abuse from someone close to her. “I would clutch that foil bag like a security blanket in the dark,” Berrie remembers in Body Harmony. In her teens, she compounded food with alcohol and drugs to blunt her pain, including “ecstasy-fueled benders,” an addiction to cocaine, and periods of bingeing and purging that plagued her for more than a decade. Throughout early adulthood, Berrie, now 40, surrendered to never-ending fad diets: “I held really tight to my regimens, and then, with an equal and opposite reaction, binged,” she tells Vogue. “That was the vicious cycle that I led for many years.”

The death of Berrie’s father—whom she calls “my rock, my hero, my best friend”—when she was 20 brought grief “that was the impetus for finally facing my demons.” She began reading Thich Nhat Hanh, a “gentle Vietnamese Buddhist monk who wrote extensively on anger, presence, and pain”; spiritual leader (and later presidential candidate) Marianne Williamson; and When Food Is Love author Geneen Roth—“all stalwarts in the old-school wellness community who seek to bring us back into loving ourselves,” as Berrie describes them. She realizes that may sound Pollyanna to some, but it was near revolutionary to Berrie as she moved into “healing mode,” including therapy and meditation.

Berrie’s readings led her to a concept thImage may contain Food Dish Meal Animal Fish Herring and Sea Lifeat would begin to repair her broken relationship with food  the practice of trusting your body’s cues—not any prescriptive or restrictive diet—to govern what you eat. For Berrie, part of the process is distinguishing “spiritual hunger” (like stress, sadness, loneliness, or boredom) with actual bodily hunger—a feeling Berrie says diet culture has trained women, in particular, to skirt and suppress. “We’re not meant to be hungry, not only for food, but we’re not meant to be hungry for the life that we dream of,” she says. “I believe when we constrict everything that we’re eating, that’s sending a message that we are not worthy of abundance in life

Popular advice like “eat six small meals per day” or trends like juice cleanses dispensed in prepackaged portions, she writes, only encourage people to blindly follow formulas while tuning out their own intuition. “What happens when you get too hungry? Oh, my gosh, you’ll overeat,” Berrie says, summarizing the long-held conventional wisdom. “‘Don’t go food shopping hungry because you’ll lose control.’ The underlying message is that we’re not meant to be trusted.” Body Harmony is Berrie’s effort to lead people back to trusting themselves over the often conflicting crush of messages handed down by Big Diet and Wellness. She’s not a doctor or a chef—her philosophy comes from her personal learnings and lived experience. “The Body Harmony perspective is really that our bodies are intuitively intelligent. We actually know best.” The subtitle for the book is “Nourishing, Plant-Based Recipes for Intuitive Eating.”

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